CEO He : Please Don't Love Me

Sitting in front of the hospital room inside which Shen Youlin was kept, Mo Roulan looked at the letter in her hands.

The large bag of meal she had brought for Shen Youlin was kept on the chair beside her.

She glanced sideways and looked at the unopened and still hot packets of food.

Half an hour ago, when she wanted to enter Shen Youlin's room, she was stopped outside …by Shen Weisheng.

'She doesn't want to see you.'

Shen Weisheng had said and the smile that she had specially maintained on her lips for Shen Youlin's sake had just disappeared like this.

'Why? Is she alright? There must be something wrong with her. Let me go inside and talk once.'

She had said to Shen Weisheng with a tight smile on her lips.

However, in response, the man had stuffed a letter in her hands without any expression on her face.

Mo Roulan glanced at the letter in her hands again. 

Since then she had not opened the letter.

For the first time after her rebirth, Mo Roulan was feeling the true fear.

She was afraid to see what was written inside.

Would not it be better if she doesn't open it all and wait outside? She can try to go inside again and talk with Shen Youlin.

However, her disobedient hands still opened the letter.

It was a small letter but to her, it felt very long. 

Words by words she read the letter and her eyes went blank with every word.

'Mo Roulan, I have spent a very good time of my life with you. You have been the best friend I could ever get. However, it is very unfortunate that we can't go ahead with this friendship anymore.

You and I are very different from each other.

You believed that I will be able to leave the drugs. I am very sorry that I disappointed you.

I don't deserve your care and friendship and believe me you will be more than happy without me.

Just think who would want a friend like me?

When you were in a trouble, instead of helping me, I could not control myself and hence went to find pleasure somewhere else.

I have been very selfish this time and I want to become selfish again.

I can't leave drugs and I have found out this thing this time.

It's understandable that you won't want a person like me by your side.

So let's end it here. Don't come again to see me.

I wish you have a very good life ahead of you.

Shen Youlin'

After she finished reading the letter, Mo Roulan seemed to have lost her half of the energy.

The letter fell down from their hands.

She was actually very tired.

Mentally and physically.

First, she had to deal with her cheating incident in college when she didn't do anything wrong and now all this.

She had not had even a wink of sleep.

Shen Youlin's condition, when she had found her in the room of that bar, had hit her hard.

'I am sorry I disappointed you.'

Shen Youlin wrote in her letter. However, Mo Roulan wanted to tell her that it was not Shen Youlin who should be sorry instead it was she who should be sorry.

It was she who was disappointed in herself.

How could she not understand that Shen Youlin was just trying to get away from her?

After seeing Shen Youlin's phone on the room's floor inside the bar, Mo Roulan knew that it was not Shen Youlin who had sent her the photos.

Someone had first forwarded them to Shen Youlin's phone and then that person sent those photos to her.

…someone who wants to break their friendship.

In fact, according to her everything about the cheating incident was fishy and now she was thinking that it was somewhat related to Shen Youlin and that person.

She had thought that she would talk about it to Shen Youlin and if everything was really the way she was thinking then both of them could find the way out of this together.

She had been thinking of saving their friendship.

However, she had never expected Shen Youlin to become weak at this moment and give up like this.

No, Mo Roulan really didn't know what she should do.

She was not left with any strength to fight for anyone else after she had fought for He Jian's love in her past life.

For Mo Roulan, if someone and something is written to stay by your side then it would naturally come to you. You don't have to run behind it to get it.

By running behind that something or someone, you only hurt yourself and that person.

That's what, she had learned from her past life.

So she doesn't wish to run behind Shen Youlin anymore. Perhaps Shen Youlin really finds a way out for herself by keeping her distance from her.

Perhaps it was only their friendship that had been trouble from her since the start.

Mo Roulan was not sure about anything.

What she was sure about is that Shen Youlin had given up and she would not oppose her decision.

If Shen Youlin had decided to fight against whatever it was supposed to be, then also she would have been with her.

It was supposed to be Shen Youlin's decision all along.

So from today on, she doesn't have any best friend. She doesn't have anyone who will try to make her laugh, who will tease her, or who will demand weird things from her childishly.

She was now the same Mo Roulan who had entered City H with her mother and a little brother six months ago. 

Although her face was blank and her eyes were empty, a tear still fell out from Mo Roulan's eye which she didn't even bother to wipe as she picked up the letter again from the floor.

She read it one more.

After that, she got up from the chair and picked up her bag from her beside.

On her way to leave the hospital, she threw the letter inside some dustbin and then left for her home.

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Tian Yuan entered the dining room and saw Liu Ji Fan already seated there. He could feel that Liu Ji Fan had not calmed down as the coldness was still emanating from his body. 

He lowered his head and silently sat beside the cold man.

The first day, when he had taken the chair that was quite far away from Liu Ji Fan, the man had made him sit on his lap and finish all the food in front of Aunt Yun.

So he had learned his lesson from that day and always sites beside Liu Ji Fan afterward.

The cold man didn't even glance at him and continued to eat.

Tian Yuan wouldn't have minded his behavior at any other ordinary moment but at this moment he needed to have a happy Liu Ji Fan.

Last night, he suddenly remembered that he had not transferred the money to the hospital this month.

That day, while he was trying to escape from Liu Ji Fan, he had thought that he would do it after the flight would land at its destination, however, he couldn't do so. Nothing went according to his plan.

It has been a week since last month had passed and hence he was very worried thinking what would happen if he didn't transfer the money as soon as possible.

Tian Yuan ate in a daze while thinking how he could make Liu Ji Fan allow him to have his phone back.

He came out of his trance when he saw Liu Ji Fan standing up from his chair.

Tian Yuan was panicked and he also stood up from his chair.

"Have you eaten already?"

Liu Ji Fan passed a weird look to Tian Yuan and Aunt Yun exited the dining room silently seeing the atmosphere between them.

From the past few days, she had come to know that the relationship between Young Master Li and Tian Yuan was a bit unusual but since she was only a maid of this house ...this kind of thing doesn't have anything to do with her. 

"Eat more."

In his panicked state, Tian Yuan just blabbered out what was coming into his mouth.

He doesn't want Liu Ji Fan to leave like this when he had not even talked to her about his matter. However, he didn't know how he should start so he was just trying to buy some time.

Liu Ji Fan looked at him with strange eyes and Tian Yuan avoided his gaze.

He sighed in relief when he saw the cold man sitting down on his chair and really eating the food he had served on his plate.

He served more and looked at Liu Ji Fan's face which seemed to be slightly better now and said meekly.

"Ji Fan, can you give me my phone back? I need it for a few moments only."

The slightly calm man stopped eating. The chopsticks in his hand paused and his heart that had warmed slightly by Tian Yuan's sudden care went cold.

"Sure enough..."

Liu Ji Fan sneered and looked at Tian Yuan with a bitter and cold smile.

Tian Yuan, You are so selfish."

He was so angry that he didn't know what he should do. He can't even bear to hurt the man in front of him.

It was his fault that he loves him too much.

In the end, he took out Tian Yuan's phone from his pocket and threw it in his lap very rudely.

After that, he exited the dining room without looking back while Tian Yuan who got the phone back didn't seem to be happy at all.