Chapter 0156
Rowan
Fuck! I watch as Ava flees from the shop. I want to follow her, but I know that I’ve messed
up big time.
I
I saw the panic in her eyes, but it was like I was in a trance. My mind shut down
completely when I saw
her almost n*ked b*dy.
I didn’t realize that I had moved or that I had cornered her. It wasn’t until she pushed me
away that I
realized what I was about to do.
She was my wife for F***s sake, but she has never affected me on this level. I’ve seen her
n*ked
countless times yet this time it was different. I couldn’t F***ing explain it, but it was. It was
like I was
seeing her for the first time.
Our S** life was good, but I had always held back. I still loved Emma back then and every
time I sough Intimacy from Ava, I felt like I was betraying Emma.
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It was the hardest at the beginning of our marriage. I drowned in guilt each time I touched
Ava. Always drinking myself stupid after we were done. After, I learnt to ignore the guilt.
Learned to push it back so my b*dy can get what it needs.
Even though I didn’t love, Ava, I couldn’t cheat. After watching my parents, I took marriage
and my vows seriously. I had countless of opportunities, but I couldn’t have brought myself
to do it even if I wanted to.
I run my hand through my hair. Grabbing the strands in frustration: The intensity at which
I’d wanted Ava a few minutes ago almost brought me to my knees.
I couldn’t get the image of her S**y little b*dy out of my F***ing mind. Or the image I had
of moving her panties to the side and sinking inside her warm heat.
I hadn’t even seen her whole b*dy yet I was F***ing hard. Harder than I’ve ever been my
entire F***ing life. The whole thing just confused me and scared the crap out of me. it
Cursing again, I leave the room. The need to escape filling my bones. I was not only trying
to escape the memories, but also the need that had taken every inch of my b*dy.
I usually don’t shop in malls. I have everything custom made by an exclusive designer.
Mom had bought some toy for Noah online and she’d wanted me to pick it up for her.
never expected to see Ava. I saw her just as I was about to pull off the parking lot. She
looked nervous and shifty, so I decided to follow her, because I was curious on what would
make her that nervous.
Part of me wishes I hadn’t because now I’m F***ing sure she’ll want to distance herself
even more.
Getting into my car, I drive off. Heading towards my parent’s house.
I was wound up so tight that it was barely hard to breathe. Everything inside me was
colled and I still couldn’t get the damn image of Ava out of my mind.
I get to the house in record time. Picking up the toy, I head on inside. I was going to hand
it over, then I
was going to my club to get myself a F***ing drink.
“You’re finally here, did you get it?” mom asks looking up from the sofa she was sitting on.
I just nod my head. Gritting my molars against the frustration I was currently feeling.
As always, a mother knows when something is right. When her child is struggling.
“Is something wrong?” she asks frowning.
I’m not a heart to heart man but for a F***ing moment I think of talking to her. I stop
myself though because how–can I?
How can I tell her that the woman we’ve spent almost a decade hating, now has me all
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How can I tell her that if Ava hadn’t pushed me away, I would have probably F***ed her in
the changing room? That it wouldn’t have been enough and I would have taken her back
to my home and started all over again?
“Is this about the article?” her question pulls me from my daydreaming.
“What article?”
She straightens and picks her phone from the table. She scrolls through it, taps on
something and then hands it to me. I take a seat as I look at the article that was published
about an hour
ago.
[Rowan Wood caught on camera with ex–wife Ava Sharp while entering a morn and baby
shop. Could the divorced couple be expecting their second child? Stay tuned as we gather
more information on whether Ava is truly pregnant and if she is, when it happened given
they’ve been divorced for months]
I curse. My hands folding into fists.
From what I know, only four people knew that Ava was pregnant. She was going to lose it
when she finds out about the article.
place mom’s phone down and take my own. Dialing the number of my one of my contacts
in the