Chapter 0274
“I still think that I should stay home with you and Iris.” I reluctantly put my shirt on as my
eyes met with
the brown orbs of Ava through the mirror.
She was seated on the bed, still in her nightgown. Noah had already left for school. He’d
also been
reluctant to leave for school. Not that he had a choice.
“You need to go to work,” she insists as she stands up and walks to me.
She lightly runs her hand up my chest before she begins to button my shirt. Having her
hands on me takes
me back to yesterday night.
The taste of her l*ps still lingers on mine. I can’t get the image of her rubbing herself
against my hardness out of my mind. She looked so beautiful and S**y at that time. I’d
wanted nothing more than to rip off her very short night gown and F*** her till neither of
us could walk.
The intensity of how much I’d craved her shocked me to the core. It was new, passionate,
and all- consuming. It was something I never F***ing thought I would feel towards her.
I’d felt the moisture of her arousal through her panties, and it had taken everything in me
to stop.
I meant what I said. I wasn’t going to touch her until her love for me had been revived and
until she finally started believing that I did love her. No one but her.
“That’s the thing, Ava, I don’t have to go to work because I am the F***ing CEO” I force
myself back to the present. “What’s the use of being the boss if I can’t take a few days off
to take care of my wife and my
princess?”
I shift to try and relieve the uncomfortableness of my pants which had become too tight.
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇtThe last thing I need is a hard on. Last night I had to literally take matters in hand because
of the massive case of blue
balls.
Ava finishes and places an unsure k*ss on my cheek. I can tell she still doesn’t trust what
was happening between us. She was so used to being pushed away and her efforts shot
down that she didn’t understand
or trust this new intimacy.
Before she can pull away, I grab her waist and bring her flush against my b*dy. I take her
l*ps, finally
k*ssing her like I’ve been wanting to do since I woke up.
One of the things I’ve come to love about her, is how responsive she is. She immediately
melts in my
I think the only thing keeping her from collapsing to the floor is my arm around her waist.
Breaking the k*ss, I stare at her beautiful face. We were both breathless, but we didn’t
really care.
I still don’t know how I was able to F***ing resist her when she was a whole damn
package. It boggles my mind every time I think about it. I can’t even begin to imagine my
life without her.
“I do want you, Ava and I hope that one day you’ll believe that and that I want to make a
life with you”
There is a struggle behind her eyes. She doesn’t know if she should believe me. If she
should trust my
words and actions towards her.
It kills me that she doesn’t, but I have no one else to blame, but myself.
“I hope to believe you one day, because life since I woke up has been heavenly. It’s been
like a dream
come true and I want to keep it that way” she smiles gently at me.
Kissing her one last time, I lean my forehead against hers. “Like I said, I’ll prove it to you,
Ava. I’ll prove that I’ve changed, that I want no one but you. I’m a man and I’ll do stupid
shit but I promise never to hurt
you deliberately”
She nods her head, but doesn’t say a thing.
The intimate air is broken when Iris screams through the baby monitor.
“1 should check on her she whispers, while looking in the direction of the monitor.
“Go” I tell her. “I’ll finish here and then come say goodbye to you two”
After giving me one longing look, she leaves.
I finish dressing up and leave the room. Entering Iris’s room I find Ava
her.
seated on the rocking chair feeding
“There’s something really S**y about watching you feed her” I say then cross the room to
them.
Kneeling down before them, I k*ss Iris on the forehead. Ava and I both smile when she
stops suckling for
a while, looks at me then continues on.
Iris is perfect and she had me wrapped around her tinny finger. I would never regret Iris,
but I can’t help but feel like my stupidity cost me a lot. If I hadn’t been so stubborn and
foolish maybe I would have had a daughter of my own by now.
Ava wanted more children with me, but I didn’t, not with her anyway. I be leved that I
would end up with Emma one day and that having more kids with Ava would have just
complicated things further,
Denying her request was also my way of punishing her. I wanted to hurt her with the
knowledge that t
Jokes on me though. She got her desire. She got another baby. Only she had her with
another man.
Follow on Novᴇl-Onlinᴇ.cᴏm“Rowan…” her voice pulls me back to the present. “Are you okay? You zoned out while
looking at Iris”
I shift my eyes to her and let her see the truth of my words “Was just wondering how our
daughter would have looked like, had we had another baby after Noah”
“You didn’t want any more children with me” she points out as pain and heartache filters
through her soul.
1 know” I sigh. “It’s one of my many regret”
Fuck. I had a lot of regrets and so much to make up for. Not just the years during our
marriage, but even
before that.
I
I wasn’t that kind to Ava when we young, I knew she had a crush on me. Everyone did. It
made me feel suffocated because I thought I would never feel that way about her, so I
treated her as cruelly as I could
because I was afraid that she would come between Emma and I.
She’s quiet as she studies me. I know I’ve shocked her with this new revelation, but I just
wanted her to
know that I would never regret any children we may have had.
“Maybe.” she starts tentatively. “Maybe after Iris is a little older and you’ve proven
yourself… maybe then.
we can add to our family”
Hope blooms inside me and I can’t help it when I k*ss her again because damn it, she was
irresistible.
“Deal” I murmur against her l*ps.
I straighten after a few minutes and check my watch. I was going to be late if I didn’t hurry
up. Saying
goodbye to both of my girls, I leave.
I wanted to hold on to the hope she had given, but I couldn’t it. Not when a nagging voice
kept whispering
inside my head:
“What will happen when she finds out you’ve been lying to her?”