Master's Untamed Wife

Chapter 803 How Embarrassing

　　Even in her unconscious state, Tang Hebe's brows were furrowed as if she was struggling with something. The beads of perspiration trickled down her face. Her hands clutched the sheets and suddenly, her eyes opened.

　　She panted heavily, looking at the white ceiling of the hospital. Her brain was disoriented for a while and she felt uncomfortable because of the sweat. She didn't move for a while, just kept staring at the white ceiling in a daze.

　　Her head wasn't hurting as badly as it did earlier but there was still a faint pain. Thankfully, it was bearable so she didn't cry out in pain once again. 

　　She turned her head to look at the digital wall clock. Looking at the time on the wall, she realized that she had been unconscious for 8 hours. So, right now, it was already nighttime. 

　　"You're awake!"

　　Tang Hebe looked at the Nanny she hired for her son and blinked at her in response.

　　"Let me call the doctor," said the nanny as she was about to go out.

　　"Sister Mi," called out Tang Hebe.

　　Nanny Mi stopped in her steps and looked back at her. Her eyes turned red when she saw her again. "Ms. Tang, you remember me now?"

　　Tang Hebe felt stunned to see her red eyes but she still nodded. "Can you help me up?"

　　"Sure," said nanny Mi and ran up to her side. She helped her up and put two pillows behind her to support her back and make her feel comfortable. "What else do you need? Do you want to drink some water?"

　　Tang Hebe shook her head but winced at how her head hurt because of moving so carelessly. 

　　Nanny Mi noticed her expression and got worried, "Ms. you just woke up. Don't move your head. Your injury wasn't light."

　　"I don't want water," said Tang Hebe as she offered the nanny a comforting smile. "But I want to wash up. I'm sweating and it's very uncomfortable."

　　Nanny Mi looked conflicted and said, "How about I wipe your body for you? Let's not wash up. You have a few small injuries on your body and it's not good to get them wet. What if the wound inflamed? We can't take the risk. I'll wipe your body carefully."

　　Although Tang Hebe really wanted to take a shower, she still relented under the caring eyes of the nanny. She didn't even know why it was like that. But seeing the genuine care and worry in those eyes, Tang Hebe couldn't bring herself to go against nanny Mi's wishes.

　　"Then, sorry to trouble you," said Tang Hebe.

　　"There is no trouble," said nanny Mi happily and went to get a clean towel and warm water.

　　Tang Hebe looked towards the window and could see the moonlight gently trickling in. Suddenly, whatever happened while she had amnesia flashed before her eyes and her expressions grew ugly with each passing minute.

　　She suddenly felt like smashing her head against the wall but she couldn't do it since her head already hurt so much. But she was so mad at herself right now. And so embarrassed? How was she supposed to face everyone again?

　　As she recalled how she called Shui Xian, she felt like opening a crack into the ground and just burying herself in. Even she cringed and felt disgusted by herself. How could she blame Shui Xian for his reaction?

　　"Fuck!" she cursed out. "Bebe, when did you become so desperate?"

　　She couldn't believe she actually ran to Shui Xian this very morning to look for answers? What was she even thinking? Who does that?

　　She suddenly felt like Shui Xian went very easy on her by just attacking with his words but even with words, he was being very gentlemanly. If she was in his place, she'd have slapped herself. Because she really deserved a beating!

　　It took her so many years to leave behind that weak Tang Hebe who always evoked people's pity. But she didn't know that she'd one day become that same person she ran from all over again. What kind of punishment was that?

　　Tang Hebe had many regrets in her life. One of those regrets was that she couldn't be a mother. She knew that Shui Xian didn't care about the child at all but she was desperate for one. Even when she tried to act nonchalant, she knew deep down how much it mattered to her. In fact, she knew that Shui Xian also wanted a child. It's just that he never wanted to hurt her so he never spoke about it.

　　So, at the time of her accident, she was genuinely happy that she saved Raelle by pushing her. She knew how much she mattered to Shui Xian and that's why she really didn't mind getting hurt. But when she saw Raelle's gown stained in blood, her heart almost stopped. Even if she had never been pregnant, she was no idiot. She could tell what was happening that snapped something in her mind.

　　She knew she was Shui Xian's sinner. 

　　The only person she loved in her life was Shui Xian but he was also someone whom she hurt the most as well. It was like she became an even bigger sinner of his when she realized that by pushing Raelle, she seemed to have killed an innocent life growing inside of her. She couldn't face that truth. No, she didn't want to face it at all.

　　Perhaps, that's why she hid by forgetting everything.

　　But it didn't really help. It only made all her insecurities resurface and made her realize just how much she was still affected by her own past. 

　　She closed her eyes as she groaned.

　　"Are you okay, Ms.? You really don't want me to call the doctor?"

　　Tang Hebe opened her eyes when she heard nanny Mi's voice and looked at her. "No, I'm fine. Don't worry about me." What else could she say? Her smile was uglier than crying right now. How embarrassing!