My Beloved

"Big brother Yujin, can I come in?" Han Luo asked.

Tang Yujin was relaxing on the bed and reading a book.

He couldn't move his body aside from his neck and arms. If he wanted to sit up and take a meal, the nurse would change the angle of the bed.

Tang Yujin put down his book and glanced at the doorway. He smiled seeing Han Luo and said, "Yes, come in."

Han Luo came inside and sat on the bed.

She had been visiting him for two weeks. Her hands almost healed. 

The doctor told her that she could leave anytime she wanted. However, she decided to stay in the hospital for a month so that Tang Yujin wouldn't feel lonely. 

She was so stubborn that no one could change her mind.

Tang Yujin said, "Little Luo, you don't have to ask for permission to come inside. Come whenever you want without asking for my permission."

Han Luo nodded, "I will do that. How's your back?" She was deeply worried about his health.

Tang Yujin responded, "It will take some time, little Luo. It hasn't been a month and I need two months to recover."

Originally, it should have taken more time to get better but his body was strong and healthy. Moreover, a mere teenager would never be able to get in two feet but he trained every day and he had muscles and his bones were stronger than general teenagers. Therefore, the iron rod only left a fracture.

Han Luo fidgeted. "Ah, that-" she could only blame herself in her mind.

Tang Yujin could understand what she was thinking. He placed his left palm on her right hand and stated, "Hey now, don't get upset. It's none of our faults."

She regretfully lamented, "You are in pain and your study and assignment…"

Tang Yujin smiled kindly and assured her, "Fortunately Xiao Ming has the same subjects as I have. He is taking notes for me; and I needed a break. I'm glad that I could relax."

She couldn't believe that he was still calm at a time like this. It was an important year for him. He was supposed to attend a business party next month and give his speech. Because of her, he missed this chance. "Big brother Yujin, you-"

Tang Yujin patted the back on her hand. "Little Luo, if it's about our engagement, I want you to give it more thoughts. If you can't decide, just say so and I'll ask grandfather to postpone it. I don't want you to force yourself just because I'm in the hospital bed waiting to be healed. I didn't save you because of this marriage or anything."

He confessed, "My body moved automatically to save you; because it's you, little Luo, not because of anyone else. Since the first time we met, I have always liked you. I don't mind staying with you and spending the rest of our lives together. Do you understand?"

"…" Han Luo looked at him in a daze. Her mind was blank.

After a long time, she asked him, "Big brother Yujin, why are you saying this now?"

She interrogated him, "What do you mean?"

Her voice rose slightly, "Why did you just say that you like me… romantically? Is this the reason you pushed me away? Is this the reason you avoided my hugs? Is that why you didn't let me stay at your house? Is that way you kept a certain distance from me?"

Tang Yujin noticed that she was becoming emotional. He hurriedly said, "Yes, that's true but I had my reasons. I'm not as good as you think I am. I couldn't control myself if you stayed to close. What if I crossed the line and hurt you? That's why I-"

Han Luo didn't listen to him. She stood up and finished his sentence, "That's why you decided to push me away… big brother Yujin, you really don't know me well. I thought… you understood me better than anyone else. Better than big brother Ming, better than big brother Yuan…"action

She couldn't stand there anymore. She turned around and left.

"Little Luo, wait!" Tang Yujin called out desperately. He wished to chase after her but he couldn't move his legs.

Han Luo walked to her own room. Her heart was empty. 'It looks like, except for big brother Yuan, no one ever tried to understand me. I cannot blame them anyway. It's not that I tried to understand their feelings or thoughts. I always pushed myself to them without realizing how they were feeling. I cannot blame others when I'm not perfect.'

We are human beings. We ought to make mistakes. That's why we cannot point out our fingers at others – Noah taught her that and she would never forget this lesson.

After that, she didn't meet Tang Yujin for two days. She decided not to do so until she planned what to answer Elder Tang regarding the marriage proposal.

One day, she walked to the nearest park beside the hospital. Her nurse was accompanying her.

The sky was clear and the sun was shining brightly. Camellias, crocus, daffodils, magnolia, cherry blossoms, etc. all kinds of flowers bloomed in London during spring. 

Just looking at the colorful flowers and their mixed sweet smell, made the passers-by at ease.

Han Luo was drinking juice that was given by the nurse and thought of many possibilities how to answer Elder Tang.

While thinking about the marriage proposal she saw some that made her stop drinking.

She stood up and walked toward the cherry blossom trees.

"Miss Han?" The nurse called out from behind. She was confused by her patient's sudden action.

Han Luo carefully observed the area and then returned to her seat. She smiled and replied, "I thought I saw a blue butterfly but I guess I was wrong."

"Oh, you will see more butterflies around that corner. Shall we go?" The nurse pointed out to another side of the park and suggested to her.

"Sure, I love butterflies!" Han Luo excitedly said.

While they were busy catching butterflies, a black shadow moved away from the cherry blossom trees.

That night, the hospital was quiet. The lights of the rooms were turned off and the patients began to fall asleep.

At that time, someone quietly entered a patient's room and closed the door. That person tiptoed and stood close to the bed. 

After that, the suspicious visitor raised a sharp dagger, ready to stab the sleeping patient.

[A/N: This month with mass release you will able to see Han Luo realizing her feelings.. If there is no mass release, wait till next month T.T ]