My Heart only Beats for You

Brennan's psychologist told Selina everything.

"He first visitedten years ago. When he was young, he wrote a love letter to a girl he liked very much. He was an introvert. It would usually be nothing for other boys to write a love letter to pursue their crush but for Brennan, it was an act that required all of his courage. It was a pity that the girl refused him." "Besides that, the girl afterwards put the love letter in another boy's drawer. As a result, he was laughed for being homosexual by the whole school. Later, he couldn't stand the bullying and teasing anymore and transferred to another school. But the rumors followed him there as well. That made it hard for him to befriend anyone of the sgender. He's even tried ending things previously. What he went through caused a big turmoil in his life. Currently, he shuts himself off from the world. He doesn't see anyone and has no friends. All he does is stay hand chere to meeteach month." The more Selina heard, the paler her face turned.

She asked in a trembling voice, "Does he hate that girl?" The psychologist shook his head in confusion, "It's strange. He should hate her but he doesn't. I even found out during our appointments that he still likes the girl very much. He has loved her for more than ten years, even though she did such cruel things to him." The word "cruel" slapped Selina across the face hard and she felt as if her heart was being wrenched out of her chest by invisible hands.

Twenty minutes later, Selina exited the psychologist's room.

Matthew had been waiting outside for a long time.

When he saw Selina's pale face, he immediately went over to her and asked, "Selina, are you okay?" "Nothing, I'm fine," Selina shook her head.

Her jaw trembled as she spoke.

Matthew could feel that something wasn't right.

"Con, I'll take you home. Try to relax and not think about anything for now." Matthew immediately took Selina to the car. He called Erine while driving and asked her to make sstew for Selina.

When they reached Perry's family villa, Selina looked as if all energy had been drained from her. She did not even have the strength to step out from the car. Matthew carried Selina in his arms.

He laid her on the sofa and covered her with a blanket.

Erine's stew was ready by then.

Matthew brought a bowl of stew for Selina.

The stew was very nourishing.

"Drink some," Matthew said softly.

Selina shook her head, "I don't want to." "Here, I'll feed you," Matthew took a small spoonful of stew and brought it close to Selina's mouth.

Selina had no choice but to drink it. The bowl of stew was soon consumed completely.

Matthew put down the bowl and hugged Selina, "No matter what happened, I am with you." Tears welled up at the corner of Selina's eyes, "Matthew, I'm really a terrible person. I'm the worst kind of person there is, right?" It was then that Selina understood why Caroline hated her so much. It was because she was mean and cruel to others. She liked playing games and making a fool out of others.

She had even ruined the lives of other people.

If she hadn't put the love letter into another boy's drawer, Brennan wouldn't have beclike this. He wouldn't have shut himself off from the world and he wouldn't need to make a monthly trip to a psychologist.

Matthew lifted Selina's chin with his other hand. He stared straight into her eyes, "Listen, Selina. You're the kindest among all the women I've ever met. Do you know that? Don't think of yourself in such a way." Selina's showed a wry half smile, "But I am not a good person. Matthew, you don't understand, I am a bad person. You have no idea what wrongs I have done in the past. I am very willful and selfish. I only cared about myself and no one else. I am cruel." "Even if you are willful, I still dote on you." "But I have done a lot of wrong things before." "I'll take responsibility for what you've done." Selina's eyes turned red.

Matthew hugged her even more tightly, "No matter what happened, you still have me. Just remember this." Matthew had never asked about what happened ever since he saw Selina coming out of the psychologist's room. Matthew could only comfort Selina while she continued to mumble to herself.

As Selina mumbled, she suddenly burst into tears.

Big, fat drops of tears rolled down Selina's face.

Matthew wiped all her tears away and kissed her.

"Darling, your tears are so precious. Don't lose them so easily," Matthew coaxed Selina tenderly.

Selina suddenly pressed herself closer into Matthew's arms and sobbed, Matthew, it's a blessing that I have you. Thank God for you. Without you, I wouldn't have known what to do." Matthew gently patted her on the back, "You haveno matter what, I'll be there. Don't cry, okay?" Selina lifted her face full of tears and looked at Matthew, "I feel like resting. Can you go to bed with me?" "Okay," Matthew picked her up.

He carried Selina into the bedroom, put her on the bed, and then he laid down.

Matthew cuddled Selina in his arms.

Selina snuggled deeply into Matthew's embrace, trying to mold herself into him.

"Matthew, I am really sad." "Selina, don't be. I'll stay here with you." Nodding, Selina said with a tearful voice, "I have you with me." She was really not a good and kind woman. Because of her childish prank, a boy who had loved her had cto this. Selina was beginning to hate herself.

But there was still someone who didn't hate her and loved her as much as he always did.

Selina pressed herself against Matthew's chest.

Matthew's heartbeat was beating strongly.

They continued to lie on the bed quietly. As tpassed) Selina felt tthat all of the invisible barriers that she bad with Matthew previously finally cundone.

Gradually, both parties fell asleep, holding her in his arms.

When they woke up, it was late at night.

Matthew opened his eyes first and e found Selina moving slightly in his arms. Selina then opened her eyes. Matthew's lips curved into a smile. "We're indeed a couple. We even woke up at the stime." There were still traces of tears in Selina's eyes.

"Matthew, I'm hungry," Selina told Matthew.

"You go ahead and rest a bit more. I'll get you something to eat. I'll bring it to you in a moment." After a moment of hesitation, Selina asked, "Won't it be bad to eat in bed?"

"There's nothing wrong with it," Matthew gently stroked Selina'sm cheek. How can you get out of bed to eat when you're so drained?" X