Pay With Your Heart

Chapter 210: Make Your Life A Living Hell

After much deliberation, Hei-Ran still did not understand Jinhai’s logic. He had treated her so badly because he wasn’t man enough to tell the truth? Was he stupid or what?

So all this time when he had been trying to help her by playing boyfriend, he was trying to make her like him?

“So the kiss and the contract were what?” Hei-Ran couldn’t stop herself from asking.

Jinhai lowered his head in embarrassment and replied, “That was just a ploy to have you date me. I was desperate and I wanted to do anything to finally have you. Hei-Ran I know you might be a disappointed in me now, but I swear didn’t mean to embarrass you in front of your family by pulling you into this plan, I...i just really wanted you in my life and couldn’t handle the wait any longer. Please Hei-Ran I’m sorry.” He apologized once again. He felt mortified by his behavior. Seeing the way things had played out he was beginning to regret not being man enough to confess his feelings to her. He should have done that and even if she had rejected him, he would have pursued her to the ends of the Earth like a real man would but no, he had acted like a sissy.

Hei-Ran was stupified when she heard him. She couldn’t believe he actually had a motive behind this, and a stupid one at that. But what she couldn’t believe most was the fact that Song Jinhai was actually in love her and he was a fool just like her mother had said.

These past few weeks of fake-dating him, she had come to discover some new things about him and to her amazement they were some good stuffs that she didn’t believe a psychopath like him would have, he had showed her sided of him she hadn’t seen before, he had been nice, caring, and affectionate towards her so much that she had asked herself on several occasions if he was still her boss. She had even shared theories of a soul swap but who knew this was the reason behind his change. Discovering he had feelings for her was a whole new level.

It was unimaginable!

.....

And to think he has been in love with her for six years?? That was sick!

Jinhai felt nervous under Hei-Ran’s intense gaze. He couldn’t tell what she was thinking. But he feared she was going to leave him, not that he had her anyway but he feared she was going to leave his company and walk out of his life, and he wouldn’t have the littlest part of her.

“Hei-Ran I know you must see me as a fool”

‘Big fool’ She confirmed in her mind.

“And I know you don’t like me because of the way I acted in the past, believe me it wasn’t what I wanted I was just scared, but please don’t leave the company. Even if you don’t like me back i won’t mind, I’ll try to handle my feelings and if you ask me to let it go-”

“Would you?” She interrupted him while he slowly shook his head.

“I don’t think I can. So please don’t ask me. I’ll try my best to act appropriately but please don’t leave.” He begged earnestly.

“And who said I’m leaving?” She asked in a defiant manner making Jinhai’s eyes to pop in surprise.

“You won’t?” He asked in an asked in an almost excited tone.

“No I won’t. I love my job and I’ve worked so hard to let it go so I’m not leaving” She flatly replied.

Jinhai felt a pang in his chest when he heard her reason for not wanting to leave. He didn’t know why but a part of him wanted to hear her say he was partly the reason why she wanted to stay, but he also knew that was wishful thinking. But anyway he was glad she wasn’t going to leave not matter the reason for it. He was happy to know she’d stay and he’d get to see her everyday.

With a small smile curving his lips, Jinhai said, “That’s good. I’m happy to hear that”

“Are you?” Hei-Ran tilted a brow at him.

“Huh?” Jinhai was confused.

“Are you truly going to be happy if you keep seeing me everyday at work after what has happened now?” She asked, her gaze on him was so intense letting him know she wanted nothing but the truth.

Jinhai stared right back at her, as he let her words run through his head. Was he truly going to be happy seeing the one thing he can’t have everyday? Was he going to be happy if she finally finds someone else and they got married? Was he ever going to be happy? He didn’t know.

“I’m don’t know Hei-Ran, but one thing I’m sure of is, I’ll be happy if you’re happy.” He honestly replied her.

They both stared at each other in silence till few seconds elapsed.

Hei-Ran gazed at him for long while as she tried to gather her thoughts together. She had to admit there was more to Jinhai that meets the eye, more to him that was beginning to interest her. If she was being honest to herself, she has to admit that she was beginning to like her boss more than she wanted to admit to herself. There was something about this psychopath that was beginning to pull strings in her heart. He was beginning to interest her, a few times the thought of their time together has made her smile as well as made her sad, as she had always feared their charade was going to come to an end.

What he had done for her these past few weeks, most especially few nights ago and for made her realize that he wasn’t as crazy as she thought and she secretly yearned for more of it. He had taken her to that auction, bought a beautiful diamond bracelet and had gifted it to her, he gave a beautiful romantic, candle light under a starry sky dinner with the kind of music she liked.

Thinking about it now, her heart was beginning to float. So he had done all those things because he loved her and not to punish her? Hei-Ran felt a sudden bubble in the pit of her stomach, that was very strange.

She was slowly developing some weird kind of feelings towards him wasn’t she? This has been one of the reasons why she has been feeling depressed lately. She was scared of falling for him especially when she knew she wasn’t supposed to. It was supposed to be a fake relationship, but she couldn’t help the way she was feeling when Jinhai was being so good. She had tried to hate him but she loved the way he was treating her. Picking her from home to work and always dropping her back, paying details to her every need, everything was so hard to hate.

Hei-Ran took a deep breath to calm herself before crossing the space between them, her actions made Jinhai’s heart leap to his mouth. He was very nervous under her gaze.

“Song Jinhai, be honest with yourself you know you won’t be happy with me there especially when I fall in love with a guy and we get engaged and get married, and maybe I fall pregnant-”

“Hei-Ran wait” He interjected her but Hei-Ran shook her head, telling him she didn’t wasn’t to as she continued.

“I’m sorry but I don’t love you-” She paused and hesistated purposely, as she observed his expression, she sighed inwardly when she the emotions that flickered in his eyes. He was trying to maintain a smile on his face, but the more he tried the more it looked as if he was about to burst out in tears.

She saw his mouth move but she continued,

“Atleast not yet. So if you want to stay happy and work happily for the rest of your life make me to fall for you.” She said with a straight face.

Jinhai’s eyes which have been stilled suddenly widened in shock, as he tried to process what she had just said.

” I’m not saying I like you, I’m just saying...

I might want to give you a chance, so Song Jinhai you have to woo me. And when I mean woo, I mean really woo. Because thanks to you I’ve upped my dating standards.”

Jinhai was shocked and confused when he heard her. He didn’t understand what she meant by what she said. Okay he understood but he was too shocked to process it. This was happening right? He wasn’t imagining things?

“W..what are you....trying to say?” Jinhai asked stutteringly. “You’re not angry? You’re going to give me a chance?” He desperately asked asked.

“Yes I’m giving a you a chance, it not every girl that gets to find a man that treats her well and stupidly buy a bracelet worth millions for a fake relationship. And I’m angry and for that I’ll make your life a living hell.” She said before pushing past him.

‘Stupid idiot. Let’s see how you woo me’