Chapter 117
17 Ayla After rapingon his sister’s grave, David helpedup like we were a couple that just had some sneaky fun in nature. I wanted to refuse, but I needed him to get up, I was barely able to walk, with how rough he had been. On top of that, I had to deal with how guilty I felt over the fact that Griffin had felt all of this. I just hoped he somehow could feel how much I hated it too. Not that I wanted him to feel my pain but that would still be better than him thinking I was having consensual S** with David. When we got “home” I took a shower so hot it burned my skin, as I kept scrubbing myself. I felt so dirty, and I wanted to be clean, not that I would ever be again. Still, I wanted to be as clean as I could be. To wash the places where David touchedas much as I could. For sodd reason, he used protection, tellinghe could getpregnant since we were real mates. I don’t know if this man does not understand how fertility, S**, and pregnancy work. But the fact that it is easier for wolves to get pregnant when they’re mated is not the sas always getting pregnant when you have S** with your mate. Unfortunately, it goes both ways, even when having S**, or being raped by someone who is not your mate, you still can get pregnant. I wanted to get pregnant, but not with David’s mate, not to mention the fact that it would probably make David go even more crazy. I tried to look at the positives, I had managed to leave the picture ofand Griffin I had printed, behind in the forest. Not only that, but I had it onwhen they kidnapped me. David had been “kind” enough to letearn my purse back. Since that moment, I had kept the picture on my body. To make sure, David wouldn’t find it and destroy it. Secondly, it felt good to have a part of Griffin so close to me. 0.00% O 08:36 117 Ayla 288 Vouchers
David had been so occupied with rapinghe did not notice, I pierced my finger with my canines. I had used the blood to write “luv u” on the back of the picture. Every other wolf would still be alerted by another wolf’s blood for at least a week. Probably more because it didn’ t rain a lot in these parts. Griffin had been here, whatever the reason was for him leaving again. He was here, so I was sure wolves he trusted would be on patrol now. Not BloodMoon pack members loyal to David. Even if they were, either they knew and nothing would change, and if they did not know it could go one or two ways. Either they stood behind their Alpha and nothing would change, or depending on what Griffin had done during his visit. They were scared of Griffin or did not agree with what David was doing, and they would gethelp. I liked these odd enough, that I had no idea when I would have the chance to do something like this again. Maybe, just maybe, if this was the reason Griffin would find me, it would be worth it. As long as he wouldn’t blme for it, but I knew my mate. Now I trusted him enough that he would never blame me. He had savedbefore, he madewhole again. I was sure he would again. Just by being him, just by being there for me. Slowly, I started to pull myself back together again: It was my fault, I had tried suggesting to David that he liked Hannah more than he did me. That I would forgive him if he wanted to be with her again. After raping me, had toldhe knew what I was trying to do. I shudder thinking back on his words. “I know what you are doing Ayla, you are still wanting to go back, trying every trick in the book to get me to trust you. So now I took you outside like you claimed to want so much. I just hoped it was everything you longed for.” He had grinned atand then licked his lips before continuing. “If you are not going to lovefor all the caring things I did for you, I 29.45% ||| O 08:36 117 Ayla 288 Vouchers
just guess I need to give you stough love.” There had been a glint in his eyes that scared me. And I was right to be scared, as soon as we got back to the dungeon he had chainedto the bed. I could make it to the bathroom, and the kitchen. I was unable to reach the living room. Now I had to earn the right to eat or to sleep in bed with him. He had thrown the ratty blankets in a messy heap on the floor. This was my bed for now, I could still use the bathroom. Meaning I could pee, shower, and drink water but that was about it. It was enough, though, I had hated sleeping next to him these past weeks. Now he had done the last thing I always thought he wouldn’t, sleeping next to him was even more unsafe now. Sure, not eating would be a bad thing. And go against my entire plan to stay strong and full of energy. But there was nothing I could do about it. There was no way I would be doing the no doubt wicked plans David would cup forto earn my privileges back with. There is no way I am going to keep strong when he keeps on doing towhat he just did. Sure, not eating would weaken my body. But it would not break me. What happened a few hours ago had almost broken me. I would not survive something like that one more time. Exhausted physically, and emotionally, I crawled down on my blankets. Curling up in the fetal position, I fell asleep like that. I never noticed David had gotten into bed. My heart grew cold instantly, and it dropped to the ground. I had been sleeping in vulnerable around David. I scrambled up, but I soon noticed I was still in my pajama pants, so he didn’t do anything to me. There was nothing else I could do, and I needed to be sure I wasn’t sleeping so deep I would not notice David doing anything to me. So I laid down again to get smore sleep. When I woke up the next time, Hannah had squad down next towith a syringe in her mouth. She quickly took it from her mouth and 60.86% O 「 08:36 117 Ayla 288 ¡Vouchers
hushed me. Before, I would have wasted no tin screaming to alert David. Hannah used to be my worst enemy. Placing all the attention on the tension between us. And the fear I used to feel for her servedwell. Or I thought it did. But yesterday, David had proven he was the biggest threat to me. So when Hannah letread and see what was in the syringe, I took the chance. Trusting her over David now, hoping she had becso jealous that she wanted to kill David. 92.31% III