The Villain Can't Lose

pαndα`noνɐ1--сoМ Nari's (POV)

My hands became sweaty as I couldn't easily let go of yesterday's events from my mind.

I was constantly thinking about the situation and the consequences of my actions.

Though I had become strong enough to protect myself from danger, if I continued to live in this place without anyone knowing who I really am, then it would not be long before someone would surely find out about it sooner or later.

I was still in my thoughts when I heard a call.

"Nari, move faster!" The head maid was commanding me.

'Not long left until I can escape from here,' giving a nod to her, I murmured to myself.

Even if Master Rowen had promised to take care of things on my behalf, he's younger than me and from clear observation, he also isn't the most powerful man in this mansion. I don't think he could talk back to his crazy father, where did that sudden confidence come in him all of a sudden?

All the shady comments and glares from him, now all of a sudden he wanted to act nice, 'but how did he know about my power? Who told him?' I thought to myself.

I wondered if the Duke was the one to tell him about me just so he could, later on, use it against me.

I was thinking about Rowen's words from yesterday when I saw something zooming in my vision.

"Faster, God Damn it!" The head maid had raised her voice and lifted her hand as well, her intention could not be more clear, she was trying to slap me.

My instincts were telling me to drop the sack of the master's dirty clothes that I was holding and protect myself, but I couldn't allow my real talent to be exposed here, not just yet.

"PAHHHHH"

A loud and crisp slap welcomed my cheek, and I felt a stingy vibration run through my skin.

The fire of my anger rose to my cheeks as I clenched my fists tightly holding the sack. I felt how my blood circulated inside of me, and I gritted my teeth, pressing them together. I moved away from the head maid and looked down at the clothes, 'I'm ruined!'

"You're not doing your work properly, damn girl!" She yelled again.

I furrowed my eyebrows as my temper sparked!

I wanted to punch her back and immediately knock her out with my arm so much, I wanted to give her the pain that she had given me, but I couldn't... Not yet... I was hopeless and helpless in this situation.

Rage continued to pulse through my veins just thinking of how pathetic I was right now.

I, a trained assassin, couldn't do anything to protect myself from a mere maid's slap, this was a disgrace to my very name. I was getting closer to breaking down and crying, but I knew that it was not going to help me either.

'All I need is some rest and time,' I sighed.

I tried to suppress the irritation that was trembling inside me. My magic was starting to get activated, 'maybe I should've started working on my magic earlier.'

"Look what you did, pick it up!"

And that was when I heard her words again, it only made my stomach twist, they forced water to fill my eyes, 'what is this...?' I felt a cold pearl-like teardrop slip from my eyelids and down my cheek.

She didn't care even a tiny bit about the fact that I might have gotten hurt by her careless actions, all she cared about were the clothes and she didn't even try to help me. If it only wasn't for this damned chip, I could've escaped from here earlier! But the magic chip that was inserted inside my body would easily track my location and I could get killed…

I still needed time to find the people who killed my parents and avenge them… I needed revenge first so I could later on just die in peace… I wanted to kill and murder the people who did this, I also wanted to see Hector's begging body in front of me… To beg me for mercy while I torture him and kill him, but I had no power now… My skills and talents that were discovered at a very young age were useless right now… All because of this damn chip I couldn't do anything, yet…

I picked up the clothes with my hands and placed them on the wooden table that was in front of me, 'just wait until I escape from here.'

The head maid stormed off and returned to her room, and I was left alone in the corridor.

"I hate it here! I hate it!" A nervous scream escaped my lips as I clenched my fists once more.

My body moved on its own, and I could feel how my trembling knees were suddenly touching the cold like winter's snow murmur floor, 'I can't believe it!' My hands started to shake as I stared at them through my blurry eyes which were full of tears.

A few questions came to me as I continued to stare at my hands.

What are you doing Nari? You are so weak! Stop crying already! I scolded myself to get over it, but my body refused to heed my commands.

Tears began to continuously stream down my face, and I let out a deep sob, "mom...! I miss my mom...!" I shouted out loud, and I held my arms tightly around my body as I tried to compose myself.

This was the first time ever I felt so lonely and helpless.

"Why isn't she here anymore?" I tried to recall my memories of her. She was always there for me whenever I was sad, or when I needed help with something.

I couldn't remember just how many years it had been since I lost her, but I still remembered the pain which accompanied me at that moment. My chest was burning up with sadness, and I felt like I was going to vomit.

"Mom...!" I screamed again, "I miss you!" I cried out loud in despair, but no tears came to my eyes this time. I could kill anyone I wanted, but this damn chip wouldn't let me escape from this place. This damned Hector would find me immediately whenever I go, but maybe it's for the best, perhaps that's what I deserved after killing innocent people... Memories and flashbacks were going through my mind right, as if some kind of wind was passing by, reminding you that it exists.

"Stop!" I shouted in frustration.

I couldn't hold it in any longer, my emotions got the better of me, and I let out a loud cry once again, "Why?! Why am I cursed!?" I started punching the bag with my bare hands. I threw it against the wall and punched it again, and again, and again until my body was sore and bruised.

"Damn it!" I screamed in anger.

It was my fault, I caused the deaths of so many innocent people, I didn't deserve to live, and this damned Rowen! Just how could he trust me after knowing that I am a murderer? He said that he would protect me, but is he really capable of doing so?

I felt like I was going to break apart if I kept going like this.

"Enough..." I muttered to myself, trying to calm myself down while taking a deep breath.

I needed to get out of here, I needed to forget about my past, and find myself again. I had to be strong again, I couldn't show my weakness to anyone.

"Nari...?" A sharp tone greeted my ears from behind, I turned around and saw the head maid standing in front of me.

Her face was burning red with anger, as she pointed her finger at me before scolding me loudly once again, "stop acting like a child!"

"I don't want you to touch me," I replied bluntly, keeping my distance from her, but anger was still burning in my heart.

"If you don't, I'll kick your ass!" She threatened, raising her hand.

This was it, fury roared through my mind as I noticed that she was trying to hit me again.

I wasn't gonna let this happen, even if I was just a slave in this house right now, I had my dignity and honor as a trained assassin.

"Don't you dare!" I grunted as my eyes glared straight into hers.

The muscles of my hand tightened as I also prepared myself to strike her down, but the next moment I saw someone grab her shoulder and stop her.

"What do you think you're doing?"