Untamed: The Alpha

452 HURTING EACH OTHER

“Can I kiss you for the last time?” July didn’t know what she wished for in this kiss, but she wanted it. She needed to be close to him, because she couldn’t bear the thought this would be their last time together.

She knew he didn’t say the truth, but it still hurt her deeply to hear that from his lips. The words that she thought she would never hear from him, but today he said it. He finally said it.

Knox lifted her chin and made her to look at him, before he kissed her gently.

Knox set her free, she could feel the love that he had for her and how much he wanted this to work, but in the end, this was a life that they couldn’t go through together.

July knew that this was for the best, she knew this was what she asked for, but why her tears kept falling and she couldn’t stop this pain? Why she couldn’t feel happy, as the sadness ate her alive?

Knox was about to pull away from her, but she kept him close to her, she wanted him...

After all was being said and done, she still wanted him. There was something wrong with them if they were not together when they had a lot of love for each other...

After all that they had gone through, after years being apart, they still ended up like this.

“I wish you a happy life...” Knox said softly, between their kisses.

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July was full of doubt that she would live a happy life after this. If there was still a happiness left for her when everything was done between them.

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Chaos woke up and the first thing that he realized was Zuri’s distinguish scent that was so close to her and her white hair that scattered around his chest, as she rested her head against his.

Her scent was the first thing that let him knew that she was so close to him.

The moment, Chaos opened his eyes, he could see Zuri’s head, as she fast asleep. Her long lashes touched her cheeks and her lips were slightly open, while she snoring softly.

She must be so tired and had gone through a rough night.

Carefully, Chaos reached out his hand and touched her cheek, they felt so soft, as he nudged her cheek with his finger, it gave him a weird satisfaction to know that she was so comfortable with him and put all of her guard down.

Slowly, Chaos arranged his body and made Zuri to face him, so he could see her sleeping face until his heart content.

She was the most beautiful creature that he had ever seen and when the bright light of the sun fell on her face, her brows furrowed a little, but when Chaos put his hand over her eyes, she became relax again, she hugged him a little bit tighter and then continued to snore softly.

This simple thing like this brought smile to his lips, as he could watch her for hours.

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“I will go to Lucinda city with Sebastian,” July said, she was laying on the same sofa, with Knox beneath her. Their clothes scattered on the floor and it felt so nice when she could feel his skin against hers.

July stared at his blue eyes, she would miss them terribly. She wished their child would have his eyes later.

She didn’t have any desire to let him knew about this pregnancy. She believed that she would get pregnant, because that was what the devil told her and she believed that, especially when Ciara also said the same thing.

“Lucinda?” Knox was taken aback. He thought she would be here, she would be in this manor, even though they were not together, he didn’t mind to be out of her sight, but for her to move so far...

That idea had never crossed his mind at all.

“Why?” Knox said that words like a whisper. He couldn’t hide how surprised he was, he didn’t expect July to suggest this.

“You don’t think I will live here with Sebastian, right? Fucking him in our bed?” July found the satisfaction when she watched the anger in his beautiful blue eyes to hear the way she phrased her words. She liked him like this.

July wanted him to fight for her, because she was so exhausted, she was so drained to fight for them both. To fight for this relationship when all Knox wanted was to withdraw from it.

She wanted him to want her again, fight for her again and became angry whenever he found her paid more attention to another man like he used to do in the past.

But no.

Knox closed his eyes and the fire of anger distinguished gradually. He restrained himself from doing reckless thing and just be patient, as he let her go. This was not what July wanted...

“Or do you want to see me kissing him in every corner of this manor?” July was upset, she wanted to provoke him even further, trying to keep her emotions at bay when she said those nasty things. “Seeing me laughing at him every day? Do you want that?”

Knox opened his eyes and July was disappointed when she found the anger had disappeared. He was so calm, she wanted to rip his pretentiousness, so she could see how much her words hurt him. She wanted to hurt him so badly.

Yet, the calmer Knox became, the angrier July was.

“You can do that,” Knox said, his voice was so gentle, as he caressed her face. “You can have your small family that you want here, protected, in this manor.”

July didn’t know why, but she snapped at those words, she was so furious that her whole body was shaking and her words stumbled out of her lips.

She pushed herself from his body and then picked up her clothes from the floor, as she put it on, while Knox watched her and did nothing. His lack of effort to comfort her made July turned around and glared at him.

Her feeling was all over the places right now and she was very sure if she slapped him, he wouldn’t even flinch, but that didn’t give her any satisfaction at all. She wanted Knox to want her again, she wanted him to feel the same pain like she felt right now.

“No. I will go to Lucinda.” The words came out very firm and there, July could see a little bit of pain, a slight of emotion that he couldn’t hide, leaked from his calm demeanor and she wanted more. “I will go as soon as possible.” NO. That was not enough. She wanted to see more pain in his eyes. “This will be the last time we talk. I don’t wish to see you again after this.”

July wanted to hurt him so bad, but in the process, she was hurting herself as well.

“I hope when you saw me, you will not talk to me. When you meet me, I want you to turn around and avoid me. I don’t want to see you again.”

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“Someone died?” Zuri walked toward her room, only to find Knox was standing on the balcony, with his back faced him. He stared at the distance, his broad back against the night sky reminded her of Chaos when they traveled together.

And even though he had his back faced against her, she could feel the sadness that emanated from him. This feeling must be so great, until that was the first thing that Zuri thought when she saw him the first time.

Therefore, she decided to approach him and talk to him.

Zuri was holding a tumbler that filled with juice, wearing her oversize shirt and short pants, she looked relax and homey. She was at ease because Chaos looked a little bit better after he got his shattered soul.

Not only that, because of the spell that Ciara put on the door, she got to mock Skylar for waiting for Chaos outside of the room.

That girl was really something else, she was so persistence to be able to enter the room, even though she couldn’t do that until the witch revoked the spell.

“That kind of expression is only used when you attend a funeral.” Zuri sipped her juice, as she leaned her back against the railing. “Change your expression, that made me anxious.”

Knox didn’t say anything, he just furrowed his brows and ignored her completely.

“What is it? Fighting with July?” Zuri didn’t want to know what was happening between them, because she could already sense problem from both of them, every since she saw them interacted with each other.

“Stop being noisy, little girl,” Knox said, he turned his body and then leaned over like the way Zuri did, as both of them stared at the interior of the building. The sofa, table and all the stuff inside the room. There were so many rooms inside this manor, so it was hard to tell what room right in front of them now.

“I am not so little anymore if you pay a little bit attention.” Zuri glanced at him, but his next words shocked her because she didn’t think he would say such thing.

“Why? Because you fuck Chaos?” he asked grimly, he looked at the distance with so much malice in his blue eyes.

“You are not serious, right?” Zuri squinted her eyes.

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