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Chapter 0299
“That is not an answer,” I snap
His eyes are like a whirlpool of waves. A storm was raging behind the gray pools. They
seemed to be beckoning me to their depths. Trapping me, refusing to let me go.
It’s then that I see it. A crac k in his armor. The reason why he didn’t want me to see
Ethan.
For the second time today, I’m shocked.
“You’re afraid, aren’t you?” I ask softly while still trying to wrap my head around the
discovery.
He shifts and turns away, but it’s too late. I’ve already seen the fear in his eyes. There is
no way to get
back from that.
Approaching, I gently lay my hand against his shoulders. “Rowan, talk to me”
I find myself massaging his shoulder when I feel the tension in his shoulders. I just wanted
to understand.
He lets out the deep breath he was holding after a while, then finally turns to face.
For the first time since I’ve known Rowan, I see insecurity in the depths of his eyes.
“You’re right, Ava. I’m afraid” he sighs almost tiredly. “Afraid that you’ll fall for him. That
you’ll choose him
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wake up and decide
that I’m not worthy of you, not good enough and that you’ll leave. I don’t think my heart
can bare it if you
left me, especially for him”
His words and the way he looks so broken right now brings tears to my eyes. I’m
mesmerized by the man
standing before me. He’s always been so strong, so sure and confident, but now looking at
him, I see
vulnerability. I see him as human, just like the rest of us, not an ice cold statue.
“I already told you that I would never leave you, Rowan”
“But you haven’t met Ethan. He almost took you from right under my nose. If it wasn’t for
the fact that he
betrayed you, I don’t think you would be with me right now. You would be his, and I would
be too late in
winning yiu back”
My heart breaks at the pain I see in his eyes. Pain, guilt and regret are all mixed up inside
him, causing
him this heartache that I wish I could take away from him.
If I doubted what he felt for was real, then consider me cured. Even a great actor can’t
fake the emotions
and vulnerability in his eyes.
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“I want you to understand one thing, Rowan, what I feel for you is unconditional. Even
when you hurt me, tore me to pieces and broke my heart, I still loved you. I forgave you
because I knew that my obsession with you when we were younger tore your life apart. I
continued to love you because despite your cruelty. I couldn’t stop even if I wanted to. I’m
with you because you’re what I always wanted and nothing can take me away from you.”
It was the truth. We both made mistakes. Some of which I’ll regret for the rest of my life.
Yes, we were both drunk, but it was my obsession with him that led me to that bar that
night. It’s my obsession that led me to think it was okay to sleep with Rowan even though
I knew he belonged to someone else.
He retaliated in the only way he knew. It was wrong and I hate that he made me pay for
that mistake, but I understand. If I were in his shoes, I would have probably done the same
thing. I would have gotten
revenge on anyone who tore me from the man that I loved.
We were both wrong and we went about things the wrong way, but I’m so ready to move
on and leave the past behind. There was no point in holding on it. It would only hold us
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“My heart will always belong to you” I continue. “If I truly loved Ethan, or felt for him a
fraction of what I feel for you, then I would never have left him despite his sins, I would
have been angry and mad as hell, but nothing would have driven me away from him. Not
even his crimes against me or his sentence”
Finally, the cloud he was drowning in starts to clear.
“You have nothing to worry about” I whisper as I walk into his personal space, wrap my
hands around his waist and lay my head on.
Are sure?
I push away the nagging voice and focus on my husband.
“Okay then…you can go see him” he says after a while, his voice completely calm now.
I chuckle at his behavior. He was trying to wipe away his vulnerabilty. Trying to make it
seem like he was
permitting me, when we both knew the truth. He couldn’t have stopped me from doing
what I wanted.
I let him think he has his way as I lean against his crumpled shirt and whisper, “Thank
you”
I was hella nervous about meeting Ethan, but I knew it has to be done no matter the
outcome.
ONUS
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