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couldn’t enjoy it. Not when she had managed to makedoubt everything I've believed for the last few years.
“Why are you so quiet?” she asked as she set her milkshake down. “Are you thinking about what | just told you?”
The last sentence was said with a smirk as she leaned back against her chair.
“Of course not,” | lied, “I am just wondering how I'm going to get Calvin and Gunner to forgive me. No matter which angle | look at
it, there is no silver lining.”
As a lawyer, I'm used to looking at things from different angles when I'm defending my clients. It's what madegood at what |
did. | left no stone unturned and | went through every possible outcome. | did that with my case and | see no hope.
| may not have loved Calvin, but | knew him very well. He had givencountless chances and opportunities to get my priorities
right. | didn’t. Calvin is the kind of man who, once he’s had enough, that's the end of it. There is no going back. There are no more
chances. There is no forgiveness.
| could sit here and lie to myself, but | won't. | didn’t have any hope of Calvin forgiving me. | treated him and Gunner like shit for
years, how am are they supposed to get over that?
“Emma?” Molly calls, pullingback to the present.
My eyes, which had been firmly fixed on the table, turned to her. “Yeah?”
“I know what I'm going to say is cliché but you have to listen to me,” she began. “You will never truly make any progress until you
forgive yourself. You're carrying so much guilt and regret. Both are drowning you, weighing you down and eating you alive. You
have to let go. You have to forgive yourself first.”
| heard her, but what she was saying was almost impossible so | stayed quiet.
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unfeeling bitch.
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“What is it?”
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| couldn't help it, | turned around and looked.
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“What the hell are you doing? | told you not to look!” she hissed at me.
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Something uncomfortable settles in my heart, and | rub my chest in an effort to get rid of it. What the hell is going on?
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