Guide to raise my cutie husbands

Chapter 374 I can do it. Anymore.

　　When Yu Dong returned home, she still haven't recovered from what she heard from Wu Junfen. Shen Li did not want to return? So all he did till now was nothing but acting? He was pretending that he was fine so that she will lower her guard and then he will —— her expression darkened as she walked inside the house.

　　As soon as she walked into the house, her husbands must have sensed that something was wrong as soon as she stepped inside and looked at her with a wary expression.

　　Because Shen Li wasn't there, Ye Liu took the lead as the second oldest and eyed Yu Dong with a slightly confused and hesitant expression as he asked, " Dong Dong, is everything okay?"

　　Yu Dong didn't answer his questions instead she looked around the main room and asked in a deadly voice, " Where is Shen Li?"

　　'Shen Li?' 

　　The others exchanged a look with each other, Yu Dong has never called them by their full name ever before, now that she was calling Shen Li by his full name the others were startled and were even more sure that something must have happened when she went out of the house. 

　　Chen Mi who was the most worried about his brother since he knew how sensitive Shen Li has been these days, tried to calm Yu Dong, in an attempt to take control of the situation. " Wife, what's wrong? Did something happen?"

　　Fang Chi too placed the double-pointed needles in his hands on the table, he was knitting a sweater for his child given that he will be born in late winter but now that he has seen Yu Dong's face that was as dark as ink, he was more worried about Shen Li than his kid catching a cold.

　　"Dong Dong, what ——-"

　　" Where is Shen Li?" repeated Yu Dong not listening to a thing they had to say, she hoped that the latter did not take advantage of her absence and went outside. When neither of them answered, she raised her voice and almost shouted, " WHERE THE F*CK IS HE?"

　　" He is in… h..his.. room.." her sudden shout startled Ye Liu who immediately answered as he looked at Yu Dong with an alarmed expression. He has never seen her like this before and now that she was so angry like this, he couldn't help but worry about Shen Li. 

　　What exactly did Shen Li do that Yu Dong was so mad at him?

　　Yu Dong who finally received her answer walked past them heading straight to Shen Li's room.

　　When the others saw that she was rushing towards Shen Li's room, they hurriedly tried to stop her.

　　" Dong Dong, wait.."

　　  " Wait wife, what's the matter?"

　　" Dong Dong, calm down a little."

　　Shen Li who was sitting in his room couldn't pay attention to the sounds that were coming from the outside, all his attention was on the sharp knife that he was holding in his hands. 

　　He felt guilty, yes he did….he didn't want to leave Yu Dong but he also didn't have much will left in his body to live either.

　　When he was a child, his parents kept telling him how he was born to be just a stepping stone for his sister and that he should be a good brother and do whatever his sister wanted, and he did because he had no choice.

　　And once he grew up, he was sold off like he was a goat that his family raised, he still hasn't forgotten the shame and humiliation he felt when his family brought him to the market and started hollering about his virtues, his virginity and his good figure that can bear many children. 

　　Back then he couldn't even think of them as a family. 

　　When Mother Yu came to buy him and told him that he would have to marry her daughter. He believed that he will have a family of his own, one that was full of happiness and laughter where no one will be sold off and he would teach his children to cooperate with each other instead of using each other as a stepping stone. 

　　He was prepared for a new life but once he was married to Yu Dong, he realised that his family only pushed him to another hell.

　　And his desire to have a child escaped his mind but then Yu Dong arrived and his hope was once again reignited, he thought that he will be happy this time for sure.

　　The happiness that he has been waiting for all along was finally in his grasp. But fate showed him how much of a fool he was. 

　　Yu Dong said that she will treat him but he couldn't bring himself to trust her. He could not let his hope shatter once again.

　　He knew in his heart that he was being selfish but he wanted to be selfish this one, because now that he couldn't get the happiness that he wanted, so he was going to take the freedom that his soul craved. 

　　He didn't want to be here anymore——- this time he will be doing it for himself because he no longer wanted to be a good husband, brother or uncle… he just wanted to be himself. 

　　The one who craved freedom. 

　　With that he raised the knife in his hands and aimed at his heart, he didn't dare to cut his wrist because he was afraid that Yu Dong will save him again. This time he did not want to be saved, he just wanted to lie down and sleep once and for all.

　　It was selfish but it was happiness. 

　　He wanted it to end in just one clean stab—— he knew that Yu Dong will be here any moment, knew she will be heartbroken but she will not miss him for long. And who will? 

　　He was just a clumsy mer who couldn't even say what was in his heart and with that thought in mind, he stabbed the knife in his chest, feeling something warm drip down his skin.

　　to anyone asking why? I am feeling the same as Shen Li and couldn't bring myself to write a comedy chapter.