QT: Against My Will

92 2.78 – Break Up – Mr. and Mrs. Jelly

It didn’t take long for a head doctor to arrive. Sitting opposite the couple, he showed them a report. “We settled on the conclusion that Mr. Xuan Mu is suffering from fatal insomnia.” The doctor looked at the couple who kept blinking at him. Beads of sweat appeared on his forehead. ‘Fatal insomnia is a horrendous disease which I would not wish even on my worst enemy.’

“The fact that Mr. Xuan Mu can’t fall asleep even after using sleeping drugs and pills is due to this rare disease. There is currently no way to stop the progression of the disease. So far, all previous cases ended with death.”

(A/N.: It’s extremely rare but fatal insomnia exists. The primary symptom is sleeplessness, but with a deadly twist: victims are dead within months.)

The answer Bing Shi dreaded the most. “Does...does it mean Xuan Mu is going to die?” She blinked her eyes rapidly. She was in denial, the shock was too much on her, “N-No, recheck him, I don’t believe it,” she turned towards Xuan Mu with teary eyes, “Xuan Mu let’s do the scan again. There has to be a mistake.” She stood up and pulled him up.

But the man sat at the spot. With a blank face, Xuan Mu clutched his chest...no... the ring inside of his chest pocket. His thoughts were racing. ‘God, are you going against me? At least let me see her in a beautiful white dress.’

“Xuan Mu, stand up!” Bing Shi cried out, “You’ll be fine. I won’t let anything happen to you, so stand up! Let them recheck your body!”

Understanding the situation, Xuan Mu looked at the doctor, “How much time do I have left?”

“Xuan Muuu!!!!!” Bing Shi shrieked out, “Shut up!” She covered his mouth with trembling hands. “And you too!” She looked at the doctor with piercing eyes, “I don’t want to hear anything! I don’t care about money. Do everything in your strength to cure his insomnia! If you cure him, I’ll give you whatever you want!”

“Miss Bing Shi.”

.....

“Maybe it’s something psychological? What did the psychologist say?” Bing Shi tried to find another possibility of his insomnia.

“Miss Bing Shi,” The doctor showed her a scan of Xuan Mu’s brain, “We found abnormal signals in this area, which is the same as the few patients with fatal insomnia.”

“My Xuan Mu can’t die!” Bing Shi screamed out. Her insides were in chaos, a mess like a jumbled set of a puzzle. Something ached inside her, the pain and fear were unbearable. Suddenly she went on her knees, the doctor and Xuan Mu stood up in alarm. Xuan Mu supported her up, but she pushed him away and begged the doctor, “Please, I beg you, save Xuan Mu.”

‘Are we not destined to be with each other? She deserves the best... seems like I’m not the best one.’ Xuan Mu picked the broken Bing Shi up, his behavior surprisingly calm. “Bing Shi, that’s enough. Why don’t you go out and let me speak with the doctor?” he said gently.

“No. I’m staying with you!” Bing Shi rampaged through her snots and tears. She hugged him like a leech as if she could keep him forever just by holding onto his body, not at all caring if it was PDA or not.

Xuan Mu sat down at the couch. Bing Shi kept hugging his waist, seating her on his lap, he placed her head on his shoulders and her arms around his neck. His hands caressed her back. “So, how much time do I have?” he asked.

“A few months... about half the year to a year at most.”

Bing Shi let out a painful wail, “Noo!” She shook her head desperately.

“Shh...Bing Shi, don’t cry. Cover your ears don’t listen to the doctor,” Xuan Mu patted her back.

The wailing increased.

“Can you leave us for the moment?” asked Xuan Mu. The doctor nodded in understanding, leaving the room.

“Bing Shi...” Xuan Mu tried to calm her down, but nothing worked. “Can I have a kiss?” he asked. The wailing decreased, then increased again. With force, he grabbed the back of her head and kissed her.

“Noooooooo!!!!!!!” Bing Shi shook her head in protest, Xuan Mu caught her mouth every time, but she continued to move her head from right to left. “Noooooo, I don’t want to!!!!”

With frustration, he cupped her cheeks and left lots of pecks on her lips. Her wailing was loud; it didn’t stop; it left Xuan Mu crying in helplessness. With his thumbs, he wiped her unending tears. Grabbing her purse, he took out tissues, blowing his nose, he helped her to blow her nose. Bing Shi grabbed the tissues and blew the nose herself until there were none left.

‘His nightmares, paranoia... I’m the cause of them.’

Placing Bing Shi on the couch, he was about to take the boxes on the table, but Bing Shi, in panic hugged his waist in objection. Taking her along, he grabbed the box of tissues for her. After a long while, her wailing finally subdued. She cried until her eyes ran dry, hiccuping, her chest heaved violently.

Xuan Mu called back the doctor, “What’s the cause of it?”

Seeing this couple’s teary eyes and hearing the wailing, the doctor’s eyes became a little damp, “It’s usually a genetic disease. But your parents have no such symptoms. Usually, the patient is all healthy before the disease appears. It shows up suddenly without notice; some studies showed that there needs to be some triggering factor to cause the actual disease.”

Bing Shi, who was hugging Xuan Mu waist, abruptly distanced herself. She ran to the end of the room, her eyes opened wide, her trembling mouth agape, “It’s m-my f-fault. X-Xuan M-Mu, it h-has to be m-y fault...” She clutched her chest and stomach.

Xuan Mu rushed towards her, but Bing Shi avoided him, “N-no, don’t come n-near me what If I w-worsen it...” Xuan Mu ignored her wish and caught her by the waist. He initiated for the doctor to leave. “Noooo!! Let go of me!” Bing Shi kicked and punched him violently, “Stay away from me!!!”