Chapter 181 181 Sex is Sex is not love ... Lyla It was meant as a joke, honestly but in the next instant, Nannys countenance changed.
Her face which had been lit with a smile a moment ago, went dull.
She lowered her gaze and refused to meet my eyes.
You should go now ! she murmured And you could tell him that youre tired.
Im sure he wont force you, she added again, before walking away.
I stood there for a few minutes, watching her leave, wondering if I had gone too far with the joke.
It was harmless and honestly, I didnt think shed react to it like that.
I meant nothing more.
Shrugging, I started towards the pack house.
Veering off to the quarters where Nathan was lodged.
Before I entered his room, I slipped the tablet into my back pocket before knocking.
The door flew open immediately.
Nathan didnt look, please.
I was beginning to think you wont come.
Im sorry, my love, I said brightly, walking past him inside the room.
There was a low table in the middle of the room decorated with coloured candles and slover centrepieces.
There was a small wine bucket too, and two glasses on the table.
There was a food tray by the corner that was still covered up.
On a special night like this, we should be together, he complained again, pouting.
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇtIn a bid to broker peace, I went up to him, wounding my hands around his neck.
Im sorry, babe.
We got carried away girl talk.
His hands rested on my waist as he pulledcloser.
If I kiss you, Ill feel better.
My heart dropped.
The position I was with him currently, was giving the kind of vibes he wanted, coupled with the ambience of the room.
Everything screamed I WANT YOU.
I nodded.
He didnt need to be told twice, he gatheredinto his arms as his lips pressed into mine.
His hands roamed my body with such urgency, that madewonder if I would leave his room with my clothes still intact.
His hands found the side zipper of the ceremonial gown I had on and he unzipped it without breaking contact.
I could feel him losing control.
The dress was too long or maybe intricated for him to thug down, so he let it go. Instead, he liftedinto his arms, kissing my neck, and undoing his buttons.
He droppedgently on the bed before shrugging This shirt.
My heart was pounding wildly in my chest as I tried to think of a way to solve this problem .
He tugged at his trousers until they joined the small heap of clothes he had started .
I took in a shaky breath, as I drank the sight of him.
Toned muscles rippled and gleamed in the glow of the candlelight but that wasnt all, his erection stood tall and proud, feeling like a long and thick extension of his body.
Ive not been with a man since Ramsey That aside, I had zero idea of what to do with a man.
Maybe, if I tried to give him pleasure first, hed get tired and letgo.
As soon as the thought just crossed my mind, he was already next to me.
His fingers found my bra hook and he was already undoing it.
Wait! I rested my hand on his arms.
His gaze had darkened with desire but he managed to turn and look at me.
The wine ... my throat is parched He didnt say anything.
He crossed the room in quick strides and cback with the bottle of wine and two glasses.
He had a sheepish grin on his face as he sat next toand broke the seal.
So sorry about that, we need to toast to us.
He finished working the seal and poured a moderate amount into the glasses before we clinked it together, congratulating ourselves.
Just as I finished the last drop of my wine, he ctoagain.
Nathan! I said quietly.
Can we not do? He was working the side zipper and was already huffing in.
frustration but he paused.
Not this again, Lyla ... he sighed and cupped my face.
Darling, please ... Ill burst if I dont have you.
please... I want you so badly ... I nodded.
I know and I ... w want you just as much I stuttered.
That was a lie.
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Its just that, Im tired and can you just wait a bit ... please ... He stared atfor a few secondsland then rose to his feet, picking up his discarded pants and slipping them on. Are you angry with me? I asked in a tiny voice.
Im not angry at you, Lyla; he glanced atbefore picking his shirt and slipping it on.
Neither am I happy with you.
I also will not force you to do what you dont want to.
Its fine.
He started walking to the door.
But youre leaving? I was still on his bed.
And youre not happy, Nathan Im leaving because I dont trust myself to be in the sroom as you.
Second, I am not happy.
Lyla.
I have desires and wants plus Im crazy about you.
Its normal forto want to pour out these emotions physically Sex is not love! The words slipped out of my En.
mouth unintentionally. When I looked up, he was staring atwith disbelief on his face.
Dont make this about, Ramsey, please, though his voice was still a whisper, I could feel the hardness behind it
Can we just go for a day without him being invisible in our relationship? You cannot use your experience from him and conclude that ... Thats not what I meant, Nathan . Cmon, I was just making a statement and youre bringing Sex is not love Ramsey into our conversation and not me.
I told you; I have nothing to do with him again.
Were history! Okay! he said quietly.
Ill take your word for it.
Im going for a run.
Without waiting for a reply from me, he slipped out of his room.