Villain of my own novel

It was terrifying.

It was absolutely terrifying not to feel anything; it may sound cool from the outside, but it was just terrifying. Speaking from experience, a minute was enough to break me as a person.

One may get addicted to a certain emotion and search for it without even knowing it, but everybody feels something, and if that disappears, then there won't ever be any meaning for that soul, never.

I promised Isha that I would bring her with me wherever I go; it was for her since she wished to be with me all the time, but now, I NEED her to be with me all the time, because I don't know if I'll be able to be "me" without being able to feel anything.

"You're taking the first step to becoming a God." Isha's whisper trickled in my ear, snapping me out of my trance. I gently pushed her back from the hug and stared at her in the eyes.

"What do you mean?" I furrowed my brows at her and asked in a mumble.

"Let's go somewhere else." Isha said while looking around.

Ignoring everything, I hugged her again and pushed myself off of the ground; after shooting up into the air, I opened and flapped my wings, and by her next instance, we were above the clouds.

"Haaa...." Isha sighed and shook her head at my urgency.

"....." I simply stared at her with my brows furrowed.

Then she began to explain that the Gods I know are semi-gods with semi-omnipotence and semi-omniscience, "semi" because they too can be killed and they too don't know everything, unlike Eunomia. A god with emotions doesn't really exist, as those with emotions are only gods and goddesses in name, and they tend to remain a transcended being or a constellation.

Because a real God cannot be biased towards its creations or everything beneath them, there are only two cases when a real God is involved: either creation or destruction, nothing more, nothing less.

A real God is omnipotent, omniscient, and omnipresent, without any sugar coating. Now, if you think about it, such a being cannot possess absolutely any emotion; if they did, then there would be nothing left. What if an ABSOLUTE being gets angry? What if the ABSOLUTE being doesn't like what you are doing? What if the ABSOLUTE being doesn't like how the person opposite to you reacting the way they are? What if the ABSOLUTE being doesn't like how the world works?

It could just destroy universes in a fit of rage or in a stubborn tantrum because it didn't like how you talked about it. With such cases being involved, a God cannot possess absolutely any emotion.

"Just like the chaos-holding calmness I saw on your face for a split second before you killed off every human being in the Elven Kingdom," Isha explained.

"Can I not be one, then? I would like it if I had my emotions with me." I asked after nodding my head in understanding.

"I do not know. I have only seen up to the highest ranks of the gods; all of them possessed their emotions, but they had them under control. And what I just told you was a myth amongst the gods and the goddesses." Isha explained, and I nodded my head in understanding.

"Stats." I mumbled under my breath.

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Name: Unknown (Eshwar, Max)

Level: 20 [MAX (on planet Earth)] [NEW]

Class: Mage

Race: ???

Title: Human Hunter: When equipped, increases all stats by 10 percent when fighting humans or humanoid monsters. (Increases all stats by one when condition is met (condition: 433 -> 1,274,684/1,666,500 to next stat increase.)

(AN: 433/500 before. 500->1,000->5,000->10,000->50,000->100,000->500,000->1,000,000 so +8 stat increase, and 1 level up= 2-3 stat increase, so at random 17 free stat points)

· Inheritor: The "Aether" recognises the user as it's master. [Active even while unequipped]

· Prince of Destruction: Prince of Destruction: User can imitate the Lord of Destruction's abilities. [Proficiency: 78%] [When equipped user's imitated abilities proficiency increased by 30%]

Rank: SSS

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[Stats]

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Strength: ??? [+139] (+) [MAX] [NEW]

Agility: ??? [+139] (+) [MAX] [NEW]

Endurance: ??? [+139] (+) [MAX] [NEW]

Intelligence: ??? [+139] (+) [MAX] [NEW]

Perception: ??? [+139] (+) [MAX] [NEW]

Dexterity: ??? [+139] (+) [MAX] [NEW]

Constitution: ??? [+139] (+) [MAX] [NEW]

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[Miscellaneous]

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Free stat points: 19.

Achievement points: 2,222,000.

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"I don't even know how strong I am." I mumbled under my breath and glanced at Isha when an almost crazy idea popped up in my mind.

"What?" Isha asked with a small smile, seemingly understanding my gaze after connecting it with my words earlier.

"Shall we see who'll win? Since the tournament is still going on?" I asked with a playful smile on my face.

"Hmm, I think you will lose though? I'm a god, remember?" She, too, said it with a playful smile on her face.

"So was the mannequin I killed in the Rank-SSS dungeon." I said and noticed her smile flatter, slightly.

"You asked for it." Isha said with a mischievous smile that sent shivers down my spine.

"Don't hold back."

"Hohoho, you bet I won't." She said with a strange laughter.

'Maybe I should run while I still have a chance? She's a bit too pissed off.'

"Then...." I mumbled with my hands behind my back, but before I could complete my mumbling,

WHOOOSH

BAM!

"Offf...." I, fortunately, blocked her punch at my chest and got serious when stinging sensations cruised through my arms.

"You have gotten stronger.... A lot stronger." I mumbled, keeping my eyes on Isha, who was unsheathing the ice-blood katana I gave her with elegance.

"I know; get ready. I'm about to get serious." Isha said and disappeared from my sight without even taking a step.

"F**k, I couldn't even sense you because you have no killing intent directed at me." I said to Isha, who had abruptly appeared behind me with her katana at my throat.

"I warned you~" Isha said, biting my earlobe.

"Again." I muttered and disappeared from the spot.

"As you wish, Mortal." Now that, that sounded cold yet, goddamn, did she sound sexy.